aLl BOuT Mi....

2006-11-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

i've read this from some magazine...

love is the source if life. Within the twelve links lo interdependent orgination is 'grasping' or 'attachment' and we are in this cycle of death and rebirth because of attachment and love. Relationship and love does not mean just the love between men and women, but also between parents and children, friends, siblings, a person and his country and so on. These are all expression of love. Even a person's hobby is also a special feeling, a kind of love.
Everyone needs love but there is polluted love, pure love, possessive love and sacrificial love. Emotions are like water. There is an old adage, 'A raft is carried by water but can also be capsided by it'. We should therefore handle our emotions with care.
Nobody belong to another person, not even his/her beloved. It is not possible to own a person totally, nor is there any assurance that one will never lose the beloved. The sacred truth of relationship lies in having no expectation. Loving a person means not wanting or excpecting anything from the person you love. When you love a person, you are willing to treat him/her well because you feel happy doing so. Why should we be w/o expectations in relationships? This is becaouse we cannot always give the other anything expect love. Why does love seem to become a burden for some in the end? The main reason is that we think that love means possessing the other person.
In reality, it is not possible to be totally of one mind with another. There are things you enjoy doing together, and also things that you do independently. Love is giving, and not taking. It is not calculative, because in the first place, you were born having nothing. The strength of love can make people forget everything. Conditional love could be so petty that it would not tolerate even a single grain of sand. When you are able to love, don't give it up easily. Do not harbour regrets or waste the present moment. Have dreams of the future. Happiness is not in having a lot but in not being calculative.
You cannot control the weather, but you can control your moods and play your role to the best of your ability. To be happy, one should cherish what one has and forget about what you don't have. Greed is the real poverty, contentment is real wealth. You can use love to enjoy the world but also lose it all with hatred.

after reading all this...i wonder if i actually do all those dat's mentioned... :P

~superman~

2006-10-27T21:49:00.000-07:00

i promote...
but it's onli becos of e skool giving mi second chance...
duh...
it's not usin mi own efforts...
shows i'm still an idiot...
a stupid 2 b exact..
ha...
wanna share...
share wad.
those on your shoulders..
ha...
2 much 4 u to handle it wif mi...

~superman~

2006-10-22T14:10:00.000-07:00

i'm back at square one...

i have been thinkin quite a lot..
izzit better 2 be back as...u noe..
it seems 2 b dat way..
i dunno...

~superman~

2006-10-04T23:41:00.000-07:00

hey...wad a dae 2 dae...so stupid...quite a lot of things happen 2 dae..haha...i'll go by sequence..first...i got chi paper in e mornin...den it's quite ok..compo quite ez..wrote bout e bie li de gu shi..ya..onli paper 2 e mcq quite sucky...ya..den afternoon got bio paper...wah sai...whoeva set dat paper ar..THKS leh...think will whoeva study bio in mi cohort will retain cos of dat paper la..den will mass appeal...kao...damn diff la...essay is ok..onli dat ask why virus is neither prokaroytes nor eukaroytes..dat 1 i completely dunno...i oso onli den did i realise dat virus is not considered both of dat...kao..fail liao la..this time i seriously dunno whether can promote nt..realli yi dian xi wang oso dun hav...sianz...nvm..den..e paper ended sooner den i realise..(cos i was starin in2 blank when i dunno how 2 do..in e end left 15 mins to do 40 mcq questions.. :p)

den..e main thing of e dae comes...after bio paper..i walk 2 e bus stop..den saw jasper...den we complain bout e stupid paper..den soon 89 came...den we board...den charmaine n linette oso boarded...den we stood at e staircase 2 e upper floor one there...den 4 of us continue complainin bout e paper..haha..den charmaine n linette miss their busstop..cos we r too indulged in cursing e paper...hhaa..cos normally miss is nvm..at most is next stop alight den walk back or wad..but e prob is e next stop needs 2 travel across expressway...wah...den e 2 of them was like..sianzed...ya...den there was this girl..she oso miss e stop..den she walk 2wards e exit there..n tried 2 call bus uncle...keep callin...(take note of this --->) x-cuse mi..x-cuse mi..(<----)
i need 2 alight..ya...but bus uncle juz shake his head n keep on driving..den e hero came...1 hai xing guy...went 2 e front...beside e bus uncle n start tokin(quite loudly but not rudely) 2 him...sae...uncle pls la...stop la..got ppl need 2 alight..it's juz be4 expressway...can la..dun liddat la..pls la..stop la... den dat moment..i was thinkin...wah..dat girl de fren so on ar..still go confront uncle...ya..den jasper told dat girl(cos she was standin beside him)..dat expressway go sk...den very fast 1...juz cross e bridge den take back 89..quite fast de..ya..den e girl was like...oh..izzit..den nvm lo...ya...den e funnie moment came..i thought she was goin 2 call her fren(hai xing guy)..ya..in e end she saed...x-cuse mi x-cuse mi..den i was like thinkin...huh..her fren name y so weird...surname is x-cuse..or izzit mi...onli den i realise both of them is stranger...haha...wah..dat hai xing guy huh...bwg sia..haha..den 89 reach e first busstop in2 sk liao...den they alight...left mi n jasper sit in front..den dat hai xing at e back...mi n jasper was like sniggerin bout juz now...den suddenly he came 2 tok 2 us...omg...tok as if we noe very long liao liddat..haha...he like treat every1 like his xiong di liddat sia...haha..den still ask ur wads our l1r5..haha.funnie sia...den jasper got ask him this yr is his last yr in sec skool izzit...he wanna go which jc or poly...den he giv us answer dat make mi feel so throw face...he sae..most like mj...wah sai..den tok tok tok..he himself misses his stop oso..duh...miss jiu miss lo...he still shout out.."eh...press e bell press e bell...oh my god..miss e stop"...wah..no need 2 shout de right..so diu lian lo...now think back dat guy ar...realli cannot make it sia..think next yr if i realli c him..i will burst out laughin when i first c him... :p..

den at night..mi dad came back...face suddenly beri pale..all of us shocked...i end got fever lo..ya...den it's at night..somemore he no strength go c doc..den first time family go call doc 2 our house sia...ya...in e end fees shoot till 200 plus bucks...wah!!!..cannot afford 2 fall sick at night..wanna sick oso in e morning...ya... :p.

hhhmmm..ya..dats 4 2dae...buai..

~superman~

2006-08-31T22:23:00.000-07:00

it's teacher's dae 'eve' 2dae...ya..happy teacher's day 2 all teachers out there huh...ya...thks 4 all e teaching..ya..miss neo..mr mok...mr yeow..etc...u all r e best sia...dunno wad kinda shit results i will hav if without u all..though now mi result hao bu dao na li qu.. :p

in e mornin go nyjc crash...e skool...bwg...better den mjc i think...even e clock is digital 1..though e toilet small a bit...but e urinal big sia... :p..e hall is oso broader...den think is bout as long as our hall...so in other words is bigger den mjc's de la..ya..but e ma fan thing is dat..wanna take bus hav 2 walk out all e way...mrt station oso..their pe shirt size xl wear ler quite comfortable leh...big big..ya..e ppl over there oso quite friendly...ya..ez 2 mix wif...oso quite enthu..funni...same sense of humour bah...ya...they got e blanga dance...woah...chaos sia...den POH BOON!!!!!wah..dance like nobody's business...right in e middle of every1 start dancin..den every1 siam...den 1 big space around him...in e end a lot of ppl take hp video him down...he still go up stage dance sia...mike...still as famous as before...

den after dat...go back nchs...wah...memories memories...all flow back like crazy..sprial staircase..hall...dat particular block of classrooms...huai nian huai nian...den saw mok n neo...woah...miss them sia...i complain 2 miss neo bout bio...den end up she gimme crash course through dna replication...woots...ah mok oso...still as 'sharp-tongued' as before... :p..saw quite a lot of ppl back there...soh..sk..chin liang..guo yong..silvia..sheng xiang..a lot la...onli dat fucker yw n bastard tan neba go back...arse hole sia.. anyway..it was quite a nice dae la...onli dat some stupid problem happened at night nia..4get it...

anyway..i noe wads goin on liao..since when i do dat huh..but nvm..i'm nt goin 2 care wad u thinkin anymore..mi conscious clear..anything u think of mi n i'm not goin 2 care...i'll juz treat it as i lose a good fren of mine...wads left is juz pure disappointment..

~superman~ happy teacher's day

2006-08-26T21:13:00.000-07:00

izzit endin...
history's goin 2 repeat itself??

~superman~

2006-08-25T22:22:00.000-07:00

1 more month to promo??
i think...
and i haven even started...
wad hell...

stupid ego...
pissed off...
wads happenin...
i'm in e middle of nowhere...
tired...
i dun think i can hold on any longer...

~superman~

2006-07-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

i'm losing myself...

gp: S
chi: currently unavaliable
econs: currently unavaliable
bio: U
chem: U
math: U

fuckin bastard..
wad a loser sia...
stupid shit...
dats e end...
found another oximoron..clever luther..
losing myelf like a dog u bitch..

~superman~

2006-06-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

disappointed??
of course...
duh...
but wad can i do...
keep quiet lo...

~superman~

2006-06-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

saw this post by mi fren...so thought of kopin from her...i oso lazy 2 write bout dat day's de events...e dae i referin 2 is...er...17th??..cant remember clearly anyway..

went for a game of badminton with lulu, furry and gab the nice guy. they all look so shag. the aftermath of jc's school work. poor thing. im the only lazy one among them who chose not to face it and went poly instead. haha. fauzi's still disgressing, said y i dont wan go jc. i still rmb he kept telling me i got a jc girl look. laughed lik nobodys business. lols.
i miss dem. sigh~ its funny how things works. ive only been with dem for lik a mnth or so, but always feels relaxed and natural with dem though dey r all guys. =]
after badminton we went to chill in mac.
fauzi became a B-boy! i ask him to break a leg! haha.
luther's still as lutherish as ever. lols. hope he stay sweet with his girl.
gab still as gentlemen as ever, still a leader, now a councillor. woots~ n he finally found someone, hopes he'll get her. lols.

in the bus journey home, i had a walk through memory lane. getting emo nowadays. pms ar! sigh~

still rmb the 1st day of orientation. luther though im a ahlian. wad a joke! cause i din tuck my uniform properly. lols. if only he saw the rest of NV peeps.
den through my most hated orientation game which is the name game i get to know fauzi. he was standing beside me. he told a joke and cause of tt, i got a good impression of him. called him furry by mistake. lols. he became my crap god.
gab was the leader. initally kept forgetting his name, but soon found a way to rmb. his name was printed on his uniform everyday- st gabriel sec. LOLS.
so the four of us started roaming sr tog.
missed those days.
got saboed tog with luther and gab into becoming peer leaders. haha. gab always get to do the most work. he is usually the one who gotta hold the stupid signboard around. i only held it once. haha. im always the spoilt, bur, and no sense of direction leader who dont needa do anything. lols.
speaking of peerleader, deres one ironical incident. i was late tt day so dey confiscated my ezlink card. den when it was time to go hme, they ask all the peer leaders to meet at the squash court for some briefing and stuff lik tt. AND dey also ask all the latecomers to meet at another place for lecture n to collect ezlink cards. they assume peer leaders wont be late. so after listening to the DM's lecture on latescoming, i rushed for the peer leader talk. it was super funny i tell u. i was given 2 VERY differnt treatment by the DM. the DM lectured me and all the latecomers lik some asshole and made us feel tt wer devils and despised. den the nxt minute in the squash court, the DM praised us lik wer god/godess. lols. i hid myself from the DM hoping he wont recognise tt im one of the latecomers. lols.
then deres once where luther, gab, seying n me went to the bra shop after rehearsal for campfire night to buy socks. lols. and the zhong ji mi ma french fries game we played in kfc. its really v fun. gab ate a whole packet of chili and i ate a bit ok ketchup. lols. the manager or something lik tt though we siao and gave us the funny look. haha!
den deres all the hiphop dance session which was super disasterous for me. a big contrast between me n luther. he hafta gimme extra lessons on dance. i cant hiphop, if not really look lik some retarded penguin. lols.
worst thing is i got saboed to go on stage to dance. hell man! somemore luther still make fun of me on stage on the way i dance.
i really really really miss those days where we ponned lectures to eat roti john with mayo, and to play badminton, and slack around in the aquarium, and story telling time where we share our love stories/most embarassing stituations while sitting on the hall's stage.
and those days wher fauzi ponned his malay and geog lectures to accompany us to our boring chinese lectures and horrible bombarding bio lectures.
and and those days where me luther and gab feeling stressed up in bio lectures.
and and and those days where fauzi and me got down with flu and he sneezed at an average of an ah-choo per 5 mins. lols.
and and and and those days in lecture wher we kept laughing because of fauzi sneezing and my vibrating in attempt to stop laughing while the bitchy GP lecturer is scolding everybody.
and and and and and those days where we walk to kovan and accompany fauzi to the barber where he got his skin cut. lols.
and and and and and and those canoeing training! it was torturous but still and surprisingly, i enjoyed every part of it. and also there was this j2 guy in canoe who was super cute. haha. he was our pt trainer.
omgs.. the more i type the more i miss. there's really alot of beautiful memories dere. somemore im slimmer and my hair is straighter then. sigh~
those days in sr..... just loved it and missed it sososososososososo much

hhmmm..think dats all 4 nw...bb..
~superman~

2006-05-06T21:40:00.000-07:00

hhmmm..it's been a long time since i last posted...hhmmm...1st term of jc is goin 2 b over soon...haiz.. jc life=no life...sianzed...somemore e workload is like crazy lo...bio is crazy oso...soooo much things 2 remember...wad G-protein..tyrosine-kinase..ion channels..intracellular receptors..cyclic photophosphorylation...non-cyclic photophosphorylation..paracrine signaling...synapse signaling..got 1 beri long de name...hhmmm...nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide phosphate...NADP in short...fuck sia...so much...den every reactions must memorise e steps n process...kao...can die lo...den cca oso start learn individual liao...now i learning chang quan...but mi shoulder like beri stiff leh..chang quan cannot stiff de...sianzed...now mi life is like surrounded by studies lo...every subject hav 2 do in advance...read in advance...sianzed...so many things...1 plus yrs 2 go...haiz...

~superman~

2006-04-14T21:21:00.000-07:00

i haven been miself lately...
since e start of JAE...
i seems 2 hav becom a diff person...
sometimes i look in2 e mirror and eventually start askin...
who izzit i c in it..
i cant find miself...
haiz...
it's all inside mi now...
all inside..
i cant let it out...
dun wanna bother ppl...
huh...
wad e hell am i writin...
fuck care...

~superman~

2006-03-18T21:22:00.000-08:00

i realised something...
all these while...
it has been juz a wishful hope of mine..
it owas hav been...
owas....
or izzit dat i long ago realise all these..
but i choose 2 ignore n run away from it...
haiz....

it's not dat i dun wanna listen 2 u...
but how can i b when everytime i thought everything's gonna b alright...
something bad will tend 2 happen...
2 pour cold water on mi...
it's not dat i dun wanna b wad u wan mi 2 b...
it's dat i juz cant...
i'm realli scared of experiencin something bad wheneva i thought everything's gonna b alright..
or everything seems 2 b alright...
i dun like e feelin of being let down by unhappi things again n again..
e feelin of havin e conclusion dat goes like...
so nth's gonna b alright la...
haiz...

~superman~

2006-03-17T21:57:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...yesterdae n 2dae nth special happen...ya..cca lo...so fast jiu start...haiz...who ask mi appeal through dat cca...bo bian...but at least i got 2 buy e uniform 2dae... :p...blue blue...hhmmm...den tuesdae n wed went out...ya...actualli yesterdae cannot go out de..but it's e first time vin ask mi out...first time...dats y die die oso must go out...but there's some consequences la...haiz...sorrie if on e phone i suddenly liddat...cos i dun wan u 2 noe e consequences...i afraid u...nvm...anyway...wed went out wif 4i peps...miss neo treat seoul garden...wah...eat from 1 plus -3plus..mi table e last table 2 end our meal...got mi zj lee tan...chiong like siaw...den after dat went 2 play pool...ya...play dao 6 plus...jiu go home liao...ya...think dats all...buai..

~superman~

2006-03-11T22:01:00.000-08:00

woah....mi appeal 2 mjc is successful....omg...muhahahah...damn happy sia...thurs afternoon bout 230 i submitted e appeal form...bout 6 plus they jiu called...muhahaha....happy sia...den fri srjc still called mi 2 sae mi appeal 2 sr failed...hahahhaah...as if i giv a damn...but...go mjc...hav 2 mug all e way...den realli scared no extra time...ya...haiz...lets c as time pass bah...ya...den yesterdae mornin went mjc 2 do e transfer memo...den get 2 noe this gal...name is crystal...from dunman sec...she oso appealin through cca...hers is badminton...she oso got 15...den oso get 2 noe a guy...zi bin...from wad skool ar...hhmmm...cant remember...he is academic appeal de...pro lo...:p...haha...den realise dat crystal from tpjc appealin 2 mjc...haha...den zibin is from ajc...ya...den he jiu go back aj 2 do transfer memo..mi n crystal jiu go back tpjc do..at there i jiu go find ze they all...den chua oso appealin 2 nyjc...left soh there.. :p ...haha..den after dat mi meet crystal at tpjc hall den we go back mjc 2 finish up e tranfer memo...den met alvin over there...den crystal go 4 her badminton..mi n alvin jiu go back sr play...cos sr got fiesta night...ya..at there mi alvin hanbin shiming...wah...we had a gre8 time man....den after e whole night...we went 2 heartland 2 hav supper..aziemah n 1 more gal came along...haha...tok tok tok laugh laugh laugh...haha....ya went seperate ways...be4 leavin every1 was like...cant bear each other lo...miss ya guys lots ar...must meet out study...must bia 2gether...hanbin shiming...dun 4get our promise hor...exchange notes...n study 2gether...hahahah....den 2dae went sing expo...kao...saw kelly 4 2 daes liao lo...yesterdae saw her at sr...mi zj n hanwei still went up stage lo...haha..den got her poster wif her signature...den 2dae saw her at sing post...kao..damn xie men man...hahaha....k...think dats all...bb...

PS: anybody wanna buy kelly poon's poster not..got her signature...50bucks..price can negiotiate...those who can hor..help mi find kelly poon's hardcore fans....thks...haha...

~superman~

2006-03-03T11:36:00.000-08:00

hai...
i got in2 tpj..
haiz..
sianzed...
realli not mi week sia...
kao...
next mondae jiu hav 2 go e skool liao...
dun wanna continue liao la...

~superman~

2006-03-02T22:13:00.000-08:00

hhmmm..2dae pon skool went out wif cg...we meet at kovan bowling centre there...den played 3 games...ya...after dat went 2 cinneleisure there de kbox...ya...sing dao shuang...5 hrs of singing...ya...haiz...den now i'm broke...den somemore i still hav 2 save 100 bucks within 1 month..cos 2dae saw a shoe..den put deposit liao..den e person sae try 2 collect e good within 1 month...haiz...broke ler how 2 save money...sianzed...den i now so scared cannot go mj...so mani ppl put mj lor...sianzed...haiz...4get it...stop liao...

ps:i got this feelin dat u r 4gettin our promise..haiz...our 'jack's place' promise...i dunno...

~superman~

2006-02-28T20:28:00.000-08:00

i'm sick of it...
i'm tired of it...
but can i stop doin it..
no..
i cant...
unless i realli put a fullstop 2 everything..
....
haiz...
....
~superman~

2006-02-27T20:15:00.000-08:00

...skipped dinner 2dae...haiz...dunno y yesterdae n 2dae feel so vexed...den 2dae still at there.......haiz...i'm sorrie IF u eva felt anything bout e attitude i gave...i'm tired..i'm owas e 1 thinkin how 2 meet up..owas e 1 thinkin when can meet...but now..i'm realli tired..i realli cant think anymore..every solution seems 2 b rejected...and now..even mi sat's all gone...haiz...u saed dat u will call i this thursdae...i realli appreciate dat..realli...realli glad 2 hear dat from u..but dun u think it's quite..........i dunno how 2 explain..haiz...nvm..i rather u call everytime possible n no need 2 tell mi when is e next time u'll b callin..haiz..but i noe dat will b juz a wishfel thought of mine...den u saed can meet up next week...but next week i'll b goin 2 other skool...i dun even now how e time will b planned..somemore next week can turn out in diff way..i may get in2 mj..i may not...i dunno wad will happen next week..it's not like those normal daes in SR...where i noe wad will happen....
i feel dat mi expectation is gettin higher n higher as daes goes by..n i realli hate miself 4 this..haiz..miss neo once told mi...'she's still young..take your time..your her first relationship..take your time..'..ha..ya...take your time..take your time..can la..of course..provided i hav e time..it's been 1 yr plus n she dun get it..i had dropped dunno how mani times de hints..but..it's e same...i feel so distanced from mi wish...so far.....haiz..
sometimes i wonder will mi wish eva come true...it has neba since dunno how mani yrs ago...eva since i began 2 acknowledge mi tiny little existence in this world..........haiz.........

~superman~

2006-02-26T22:04:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...yesterdae went out wif pri skool fren...meet pris n gloria at mi house downstairs at bout 1...den walk 2 pri skool...den slowly all came..weiquan wenyao yile arison yonggang wilson hakkim sharvin yonghao zifeng pris melody gloria...wah...saw weiquan...omg...SSSOOO tall lor...omg...mi eye level is his neck there leh...kao....shoot so tall...haha...den we went 2 ps..watch movie...watch final destination 3...haha..but be4 dat we went 2 play billard...cos melody bought a 4o'clock de ticket..den still got time...so go play lor...den e show...power ar...haha...arison sae it's adventurous...but pris melody n gloria disagree...they sae beri gross...it's quite la...but...nice lor...somemore e guy die ler still can point middle finger...we guys all at there laugh lor...haha...n e staple gun..wor...biang biang biang biang...all bullets go through e gal's head....pro pro..at e end of e show we all sae...next time if hear e song...must scared a bit...:p..den dun go tan youself..dun drive 2 those drive in fast food restaurant..cannot take roller coaster...cannot take train...diaong...so mani things cannot do..haha...den after dat...we decide 2 go eat steamboat..den we went marina bay mrt station wait 4 jungui...den from 630(izzit 630??or 730??cant remember la..it's either anyway)wait..wait wait wait wait..wait 4 45 mins man...so long..den we went marina south there..eat steamboat...den 1 side eat 1 side tok bout so mani things...den there's wenyao n his christian thingy...city harvest ar..if not wrong...he ar...haha...laught like hell lor...long long long long time neba laugh till so happy liao...den mel hor...damn pro ar...next time can b 'chef'..haha...she cook hor..cook till e region there black black..black still nvm...cos it's normal when u hav bbq on aluminium foil...but ar..oso got those small small black black de thingy lor...yi kuai yi kuai de...aiyo..so disgustin..den request 4 change of aluminium foil lor...ya..after eatin go play arcade..we all race datona...eh..izzit liddat spell ar...hhmmm...den got 1 machine siaw siaw 1....use dat owas lose...den mi wenyao play drum...dat time quite retarded man...haha...nvm...den bout 1130 liao..so went home lor..den on e way..wenyao sae must b gentleman send gals home..cos late liao...if not meet wolf..haha..den i was thinkin of saein 2 wenyao this....eh...u wif us..i think e gals wud b quite safe...haha....in e end neba sae..hahah...den reach hougang interchange...mi wenyao weijie pris gloria alight...mel n wilson go sk...wilson send mel home...ya...den we all realise no more bus liao..den walk home...quite near anyway..den on e way tok bout lot of e past oso..so huai nian...haha...especialli eddie...OMG!!!...hahah...k...shall not sae it here...hahaha....den first send gloria home...c her go up lift mi n wenyao den fang xin...den next is pris...ya...den after dat..mi n wenyao called mel make sure she reach home safely..den found out dat wilson neba send her home...wtf man...hahhaa....den jungui...cant reach her...sad...nvm...ya...den bout 1230 liddat i jiu reach home liao..cos pris house near mi house..ya...den wenyao n weijie go clark quey n cousin house respectively...ya...den go home..bath..charge hp...den sit on bed stare in2 midair a while jiu sleep liao..hhmmm..at 1 plus..ya...dats all..bb...

2006-02-12T11:32:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...haiz...finalli get back mi results..after so long of anxiety..fear..worry...got back...in e end all this becomes disappointment...haiz...went i walk 2 e table i saw e result slip..but it was upside down...i cant realli c it properly...wad i saw was...A B B A B A B...something liddat...i was like...hhmmm..ok...not bad..but when i realli took it up n hav a proper look at it...i almost break down..eng b4.. c.h got b3..chem phy bio was b3 b3 b4 respectively..chi a1... last but not least.. e math a math..both is a2...WTF lor...A2 leh... @$@#!*#@!*#@*...kao...drop from a1-a2 lor..this is wad i most pek chek bout lor...kaoz..in e end add up...L1R5 got 15...R4 got 12...haiz...den now dunno go where liao...should i go poly or jc..haiz...in e end at skool still cried out...haiz..thks dear 4 being there..i mean literally being there...when u r there i feel much better when i saw u...juz a look at u...juz a look...ya...

go jc: i dun wanna stay at sr..if go ny...hav 2 appeal...den hav 2 put at first choice...but it's almost like deliberately waste mi first choice..if appeal in still nvm...but if cannot...can go bang balls liao...tamp beri far...no direct bus...cjc oso...oso heard from mr kevin tan dat cjc is not a good place...innova got direct bus..but it's not safe 2 go 2 a new skool...haiz...sianzed...den if i go jc..i scared i stuck at mi a lvl cert nia...den in e end hav 2 go poly..make 1 big round...but compared 2 poly..jc is ezier 2 get 2 U...haiz...

go poly: go poly is a safer road...but it's not ez 2 get 2 e U...those who go U from poly r those like mi bro liddat...they at first go jc..in end cant go U..den go poly..den from poly go up U...den poly bus fare ex man...n poly hav 2 b damn discipline..if not diploma oso cant get...den if go poly..i will b concentratin on a course...den think bout it again..this diploma can bring mi how far...i will b workin at e workforce 4 at least 30 plus yrs...can a diploma bring mi far..i dun think so..in e end oso hav 2 go U...den if liddat..money will b e prob...den papa mama not dat filthy rich lor...

conclusion : vexed..realli cant make up mind go where...i can tell dat mama in her heart wan mi go jc..cos it's cheaper..den there is oso 1 other factor i hav 2 consider...i won write wad izzit la...but e person should noe...should la..but dunno e person noe not... :p ....

hhmmm...den yesterdae went out wif dear...hhmm..go watch i not stupid too..it's quite funnie la e show...got laugh at some part...oso got cry...we both oso got cry lor... :p ...chencai father remind mi of...haiz...nvm..den yesterdae was e first time we went out n hav lunch 2gether...first time sia...since we start goin out 2gether...at there laugh...we went marina square watch la...cos she like 2 go there...den we walk out..go esplanade park...den sit down by e...river i think..sit there tok tok...after dat went back j8 take neo..went home after dat..cos she hav 2 go out wif family hav dinner...ya...hhmmm...den tmr hav 2 go out buy her v dae prezzie...hhmmm...dunno should buy her rose not...cos scared her mama c ler ask this ask dat...hhmmm...wah..this few daes so mani probs man...hav 2 solve it 1 by 1...1 by 1...

~superman~

2006-02-06T20:02:00.000-08:00

wad e hell...
i thought 2dae get results..
in e end sae dun hav..
wad e hell...
den news sae fri...
kao...
still hav 2 wait till fri...
gan chiong ar...
realli scared i will cry even be4 i open it lor...
aarrggghhh....
good luck 2 every1..
mei...
hope u get less den 20 ar...
must hav confidence in yourself..
dun owas sae cannot cannot...

~superman~

2006-02-01T20:37:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...feel quite moody 2dae...so thought of postin 2dae..ya...haiz...few more daes jiu take result ler...it's been about 4 yrs since i last got this type of thing...dat time was psle..now is o's..i'm so scared lor...haiz...den...i feel so 'alone' this few daes...i even had a dream yesterdae...when i woke up..i was so scared..i won sae wad was e dream...but e reason i was scared is not becos i dun trust erm..ya....but is dat i'm not confident in miself...i'm a sensitive guy..i tend 2 hu si luan xiang...den i got phobia of such things 2 happen...if history realli happen again...i dunno how am i goin 2 take it...haiz...u all may not noe wad i saein...but it's ok de la..cos i juz wanna type out wad i wanna sae..ya...haiz..den mi phone like damn quiet lor..i realli wish dat it wud often make some sound accompanied wif e pic i wanna c on mi phone..but...haiz...n there's oso a lesson i once learnt..which is neba 2 make your hopes 2 high...e higher it goes..e worse it wud feel when u fall..but i juz keep makin e same mistake...haiz...i feel like..i'm more of a burden rather den a.....haiz...4get it..dats all..

~superman~

2006-01-30T13:05:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...it's been quite some time since i last posted...hhmmm...anyway...it's cny liao..it's angbao n more angbao...*hope so*...cny eve i still was at mi uncle stall helpin him out sia...mornin no ppl de...den when reachin lunch time...kao...damn lot of ppl...work till bueh tahan..den after lunch time jiu suddenly no 1...like deserted liddat..den afternoon move all e haven-sell-out goods up 2 e pickup truck..den drive 2 mi grandpa factory n put there temp lor...wah...neba realised be4 dat cloth can weigh so much man..so heavy ar..den dat nit ton till 3 plus...kao...previous night which is 27th night i ton till 2 plus 3...den cny eve ton till 3 plus..kao...damn tired lor..but nvm la...cny la...sad thing is dat i neba do dry swimmin leh...sianzed...this cny like no kick liddat leh...dun hav e atmosphere of cny liddat...ya...den mi aunt's sis got ask mi teach her daughter A math...ya...but think of it..if i accept..mi sat n sun will b gone ler...den in e end i sae dun wan...cos weekdae i alreadi dun hav time ler..e onli chance is sat n sun...if i accept..den it's e whole week ler...in e end i rather giv up lor...ya...haiz...wasted la...but hope it's worth it...ya...
hhmmm...dear...tc at skool hor...jia you in ya studies...dun owas get 30/50 ler...get higher den dat..much higher...ya...luv ya n miss ya lots...

~superman~

2006-01-21T21:58:00.000-08:00

1 week past liao...it's been quite a stressful week...firstly..this week marks e end of our og group...comin mon start will b cg liao...civics group...sianzed man...den every1 like..cant bear 2 leave each other...cos cg beri e sianzed leh...noe no1 there lor..kao...second...start of cca...canoein..e physical trainin...so tough man...dat time mon i strain miself 2 much...till now still haven fully recover...den comin mon still got swim test...thirdly..stupid skool catch appearance catch till liddat...fuckin hell man...wan us 2 go cut slope...dream on man..i rather dun go skool...anyway..i mon won b goin skool... :p ..fourth...went 2 e poly open house...now realli cannot make up mi mind whether go jc or poly...make mi feel so lost...cos this decision realli will affect mi future...there's 1 nigh i cried becos of this...i realli miss nc..miss mi sec life...sec life is so relaxed..i realli regret i did not realli enjoy e period..it's over be4 i realise it was...haiz
den recently got a bad news...mi uncle's shop caught fire..haiz...suey man...cny comin...den this thing happen..hope dat he can get over it soon...haiz....dats all...bb...

~superman~

2006-01-14T21:56:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...2dae got e chingay thingy...e street rockers trainin...it's quite sianz over there...but at least get 2 meet new frens la..like T...ya...he's a j2 guy from cjc...funnie guy ar...haha..ya...den 12 finish...went heartland mall wif zj hanpin...ya..den chiong home...cos still hav 2 buy lunch 4 mama...den went out...go buy singapore mint e things...den jiu go home ler..dats all 4 2dae la..

~superman~

2006-01-13T21:43:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...this few daes start lesson...wah..e bio...kao...so mani thngs 2 study man...cant even rest 4 a min...realli hav 2 pay attention 4 e whole hour...wah..juz onli e cell membrane...if at sec study..it's juz a short para..den if at jc study h2 bio...kao!!!...take up 4-5 pages man...so mani things...den e nucleus oso...got wad smooth endometric dunno wad shit la...den wad rough dunno wad shit la...kao...ribosomes...lyso-something..cant remember how 2 spell it...diff man..kao...somemore e teacher go damn fast...like machine gun...hhmmm...den yesterdae after lesson go back nc..find vin...den pei her home..den went hougang there play badminton wif fauzi gab see mun se yin...ya..den went kovan there continue play..cos hougang e court 4 jiu finish ler...den i reach hougang at 345..haha...den go kovan there..payar lebar i think...play till 6...den went home...ya..2dae got bio lecture again...wah...siong ar..after lesson..went back nc again pei vin...haha...skip econs lecture...haha...*prayin hard vin won scold*...hahah...cos econs i alreadi study miself ler...ya..den went back at 1230..reach skool bout 130..or earlier la...cant remember..pei her till 3 plus..den she go band..haha..now nc de band n wushu can die liao la...change instructor...ya...den after dat mi zj josiah yanling rennie n pearl sit at canteen tok...so funnie..dat pearl freak out when i took out mi contacts..who ask her 2 ask mi 2 take it out..haha..den we went hougang mall...cos pearl meetin her mama 2 buy contacts...go yongming papa shop..haha...2bad i neba go in den ask 4 discount...haha..den 6 jiu went home ler...ya...den tmr still hav e chingay thingy..dunno go where meet lor...did not even sae anything bout it...onli noe it's from 8-12...den afternoon still hav 2 go out wif da sao..go city hall...kao...y ask mi out...sianzed...think no need study mi bio ler...haha...nvm...sun...sun...haha..must pia..somemore e cny card haven do...kao..wah...stressed...stressed...

~superman~

2006-01-10T21:23:00.000-08:00

hhmmm..2dae hari raya...so..happi hari raya haji 2 whoeva related 2 this festival..ya...aarrggghhh...i'm not goin 2 cut mi hair....no way man...if they realli chase mi out of skool....den let it b...i won cut it...srjc..come on man...i take u on..fight till e end...f***er...ask mi cut hair..f***...aarrrggghhh...hhmmm...2dae went out wif vin..not go out play la...is go out teach her e math..actualli is not teach la..is guide her through those questions lor..a few onli la..den after dat dunno go where...roam about..ya...den bout 4 plus goin 5 i hav 2 go ler..ya...sianzed..dunno when can c u again...miss ya lots dear...tc wor...miss mi k... :P...ya...write till here...buaibuai...tc..

~superman~

2006-01-06T11:49:00.000-08:00

y am i owas hopin 4 sth

dat i alreadi knew

wud not happen....

y...

y am i so stupid...

i realli feel like cryin mi hearts out...

i juz cant...

ARGGHHH....

*breathe out deeply*

haiz...

~superman~

2006-01-05T21:25:00.000-08:00

hhmmmm...sianzed...srjc orientation is damn sianz lor...kao...at there...can sleep e whole dae de...kao...borin man...haiz...saddenin man...fuck...aarrghhh....dun wanna tok bout this anymore...make mi damn angry...now i'm stuck wif e skool....asshole...

hhmmm...den this sat goin malacca...mi aunt 2dae suddenly called n ask if i wanna go not...shocked...hhmmm....ya...dats all...i nth 2 sae..beri sianz this few daes oso...phone owas so quiet...haiz....

~superman~

2006-01-03T20:27:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...2dae..went srjc..kao..there ar...bwg man...e orientation programme is damn sianz lor..kao..play e treasure hunt...lao...it's like it's e ogl play onli..den we juz follow them around e skool...btw ogl stands 4 orientation group leader..they r e seniors of srjc..they r enthu bout everything la...but..not organised lor...haiz...hopeless...den at there saw situ esther kim an jun jie...ya..all last time from nchs...haha..den at there at least got make some frens la...hhmmm..they r si hui..quan bao...daniel..jonathan...ya...they r ok la...ya...at least they make e orientation not dat sianz...ya...haiz...tmr still hav 2 go back...kao...tmr until 430 leh...den fri until night leh...got camp fire...mayb i not goin...ya...who cares anyway...ya...

~superman~

2006-01-01T22:48:00.000-08:00

it's a new yr liao..2005 over liao...2006 lai liao...time reali flies...haiz...i gonna miss every1 n everything..i realli cant bear 2 leave nchs...4 yrs there liao..got some bu she de lor..4 yrs almost everydae 12hr spent there leh...all mi fun n laughter all come from there..though there r oso sad memories..haiz...sec life...haiz...it's over so soon...nvm...lets hope next yr wud b a better yr...

i yesterdae finalli say wad i wanna say liao..realli feel much better now..ya...hhmmm..do u noe..it's actualli juz those simple words from u dat realli makes mi feel good n cheers mi up..words like..i will miss u..i love u muacks..dun wan i wanna tok 2 u..all these realli goes deep in2 mi heart..u may think it's nth..but 2 mi..it's these simple things dat i crave 4 all e times...4 mi 2 actualli feel dat i'm being loved..though this words dun come by ez-ly...haiz...dats y i treasure it every time u sae it...
i love u...

~superman~

2005-12-29T22:18:00.000-08:00

i'm back from chalet 2dae...chalet was at pasir ris there lor...e first dae was ok la...cos by time reach there oso 3 plus...went 2 play pool...den jiu bbq...den jiu start play waterbomb liao...play dao siaw...i n chernharn take 2 plastic bag go other place fill a lot first den go back den throw at others...got 1 time chernharn betray mi ar..throw mi...in e end kana mi bomb..hhmmm..den e night..so mani ppl in e small room...wanna sleep oso cannot...in end i went 4 a walk wif chernharn at night..or mayb early mornin...ya..den tok a lot la...she tell mi hers..den i tell her mi probs all those lor...tok quite a lot la...in e end went back room..try 2 squeeze some place 2 sleep...but oso cannot slp...haiz...sianzed..hhmmm...den second day...kao...almost every1 went home...den i was like...kao..damn sianzed lor...so borin man...literalli nth 2 do..sit on bed stare in2 midair..bing oso there..den he kpkb..sae sianzed..den so funnie...hhmmm..onli dat kf can sleep...den in e end went xsquare wif yw n br..ya..den at night..soh came...den play arcade..ya...den go xsquare again..haiz...realli nth else 2 do man..den..yw n br went home...jieting ho caiying chuan came.. den spent e night there..den dat night oso sianzed..teach them play bridge..den jiu sleep...mornin check out jiu went home sleep...so e 2 night i onli slp 4 bout 4 hrs nia...diaong...den if i think again...i think onli mi n kf spent both e nights there...e rest either go home at e first night...or came back onli at e second night...ya...haiz...this chalet quite sianzed la...

haiz...think sooner or later i will tio depression man...haiz..dunno if i should write mi troubles here...but...but...i realli wanna sae it out leh...nvm...4get it..

~superman~

2005-12-26T22:06:00.000-08:00

it's 26 today...i oso dunno y..i got this feelin of copin miself inside mi room n neba go out eva again...haiz..it's mi mood swings again..i juz cant cheer up...though i may b smilin here n there..laughin here n there when go out wif mi bunch of frens yesterdae n 2dae...but..deep down mi...i dun feel happy...juz now...on mi way home from orchard wif mi fren..i did nt speak a word..reach home ler..oso did not say a thing...after dinner i jiu lock miself up in mi room...close e light...n juz lie on mi bed..stare at e ceiling..den mi hand juz went 2 mi phone n switch on music player n listen 2 e song i owas like so much...tonight i wanna cry...i was listenin 2 it...den..mi eyes started 2 becom hot..n....ya...haiz...i realli hate miself...y cant i juz b a happi-go-lucky guy..n juz b open bout everything..juz becos of sth..small things..i kana affected..or sometimes nth happen i oso will hav mood swings..y am i such a emotional n sensitive guy..y do i expect so much...y do i suddenly feel so selfish..haiz...

4get it...

it's neba goin 2 b ok..

i juz cant get rid of this characteristic..

this is mi..

n do i realli hav 2 accept it...

or can i run away from it..

haiz...

it's goin 2 b e end of this yr ler..next yr..comin..i'm worried...realli worried n scared...same skool still neba mind..but...next yr..i realli dunno wad 2 do...i realli hope a solution will juz pop out in mi mind..

dear santa..

this may b late 4 one day...but...i juz wanna write it...i'm not realli a good guy this yr..so i dun expect u 2 stuff anything in2 mi sock...juz hopin dat next yr will b a good 1..haiz...thks realli beri much..
but on second thought...hu cares if u giv mi anything on christmas..hu cares if i'm rude 2 u now...u neba failed 2 disappointed mi every yr..Gone are the fairytale stories as i age...When reality slams real hard on your face..you know fantasies are only for those who has a weak heart and mind..

yours sincerely..
from some1 hu will neba..
receive any more surprises
in e future..
~superman~

2005-12-24T22:25:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...bd over ler...haha....nvm...next yr will come again de...this yr prezzie beri little...sianzed..till now onli got a wallet..e rest of mi wishlist dun hav...sianzed...hahha...nvm...last yr got quite a number ler...so this yr dun hav...next yr bah...mayb got more...hahah...
hhmmm...den 30th got prom...dunno should go nt leh...sianzed...half formal leh...still hav 2 buy clothes..if full formal still nvm...cos alreadi got ler...but half formal still hav 2 buy jacket...sianzed..cheapest oso 80 bucks lor..haiz...nvm..
hhmmm...den 2 dae went out wif vin...ya...watch e promise..e show quite stupid n funnie la...den in e end dunno e female lead is like hu...kao...quite confusin oso...but i like 1 of e quotes from it...hhmmm...it's something like...u cant change e destiny..unless wad river flow other way..den moon sun come out 2gether..den dead ppl becom alive again...something liddat la...quite nice...den e cinema beri cold sia...haha...we watch at ps..den we went marina square..go walk walk...den play bowling...kao..first time..first time..i make a gal pay 4 mi things...kao...wanna cry liao la...sad man...haiz...vin..u should b honoured..u r e first leh...first n last...haha...i won make any gal pay 4 mi things again..
hhmmm...dats all 4 now...merry christmas 2 every1...tc..buai

~superman~

2005-12-23T22:58:00.000-08:00

happi birthdae 2 mi..
happi birthdae 2 mi..
happi birthdae 2 mi-eeeeee...
happi birthdae 2 miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii........

hhmmm...2dae mi bd...oso mi last dae of work...den got pay..muhahaha...but ar...pay in check ar...sianzed..den...finalli can stop saein...contest sir...contest ma'm...hahah....gonna miss every1 man...ah bu...samirah..fayiza(dunno how 2 spell her name..pronounce liddat anyway..)bruce..melissa..andy...ya...last 1...thomas...hahahahhahah.....thomas still owe mi king kong n 10 bucks lor...kao...haha...oh ya....1 more 1 more...BAKAR!!!!..e blurest n 'best' driver i eva seen...hahaha...k la...write till here...goin out tmr anyway...happi birthdae 2 mi again...buai..tc..

~superman~

2005-12-20T06:44:00.000-08:00

hhmmm....2dae..20th...kao...so tirin sia this job...now i scared e sentence...contest sir contest...n contest ma'm contest...scared e word contest...haha... :P ...nvm...3 more daes...bear wif it...jiu got 600 bucks ler...ya...dats all 4 2dae bah...

"||it's 4 u...all i'm doin this 15 daes..it's all 4 u...miss ya lots||"

~superman~

2005-12-17T00:06:00.000-08:00

wah....this few daes ar...like hell liddat...everydae wake up...go work...after work go home...reach home..bath..eat...slp...den wake up...den same thing happen again...lau...i even lost track of time man..almost 4get 2dae's bbq...hhmm..i mean yesterdae 2 b exact..cos now alreadi 17 liao...wah...6 more daes den work finish liao...juz nice 23...cant believe this is e way i celebrate mi bd...kao...sianzed...but this few daes at work fun la....quite happi when workin...cos get 2 noe new frens la...thought all older den mi...but all oso like mi liddat..slack slack...got ah bu...samirah..kirin..ya...bruce oso...this few r e best man...haha...we all owas come 2 gether giv thomas hell man...btw..thomas mi boss...haha...hhmmm...k la...late liao...tmr hav 2 wake up at 630...den go bras basah there...buaibuai...tc..brb again...haha..

~^miss ya 2 durin this daes...luv ya soooo much...muacks...tc wor...dun fall sick...^~
~superman~

2005-12-08T21:59:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...2dae mornin josiah call mi...sae he got job 4 mi...ya..quite happi la...but sad oso...hhmmm...e job is continuously 15 daes...den from 10 to 8...still dunno venue..den from tmr start...9-23...23 leh...sianzed...23 still nvm...but take up 15 daes of mi holidae...den...how am i suppose 2 pei her...den liddat i left last week nia...kao....sianzed...haiz...dunno...juz hav 2 let it b....haiz...
~superman~

2005-12-07T20:59:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...last sat went jb...wah..mornin go hor...jiu so mani ppl ler....in sing de custom still nvm..though long...but fast...but at malaysia there....KAO...SOOOOO long....and SLOWWWWW....haha..if i n a snail compete hor..which means..e snail keep crawlin la..den i queue up...i think e snail will win mi lor...e snail can go faster lor..haha...den reach jb ler..went 2 e holidae plaza...den start shoppin...kao..den no $$ hor...onli can window shop...wanna buy hav 2 think twice..kao...in end i bought a long sleeve de shirt...n a adidas vintage de shirt...ya...actualli wanna buy another levi's jeans de...cos cheaper den sing...bout 99 sing $$ sold over there...ya...but in e end neba buy...sianzed..den oso wasted a chance 2 buy a 30 plus bucks boardshorts...kao....WASTED leh....haiz...dat trip 2 there hor...is damn wasted man...if i bring enuff money...i buy till...wah....HAPPI.. sha la la..it's so nice 2 b happi...sha la la..kao....sianzed...

den 2dae juz came back from chalet...this chalet is we guys of 4i open de...from mondae till 2dae...mondae ar...actualli is 12 meet cp de..in e end haven buy satay n otah..den i n zj go buy..in e end soh they all go first...den i n zj jiu go cp wait 4 calven cos his mama got van..den can send us over..den at 130..we call him..he sae bout 2 den can ok...den we wait till 2...but ar..2 ler...he sae e van wif his dad...den need somemore time be4 he come back...haiz...in e end i n zj jiu go there on our own...haha...hhmmm...reach there alreadi 3 plus ler...actualli wanna go skool fetch vin home...but.....haiz....hahahaha....so funnie...nvm...

dat nit jiu bbq..food in e end cannot finish..jiu giv alden de fren...cos his fren juz beside us nia..their bbq i mean...den his fren name is jia jia...den we owas call her jia jia liang teh..den bout 9 we jiu finish..pack up..den go up...cos tan zj wanna watch wu chu cai hong..den we all went up 2gether..den some of us dun watch mah...den we jiu go arcade play..cos 1 game 20c nia...so cheap...play dao song....wads funnie dat time is dat...wah..after we play finish..we all went e machine buy drink..den calven no coins...he use 1 10 bucks notes..went 2 a machine dat changes notes 2 all 20c coins..den change 2 10 bucks notes all 2 coins.....muhahahha...damn stupid leh him...haha....den we all at there laugh laugh laugh....hahaha...

den e next dae we all dunno wad 2 do..haha...den i jiu went out find vin...we oso dunno go where...cos she need 2 b home by dinner time...by e time we meet each other alreadi 3 plus ler...haha....in e end we went cp... :p ...went 2 a quiet place...juz she n mi..ya...hhmmm...den went 2 meet zj..den i n him jiu went back chalet ler..

den 2dae 810 we all jiu wake up..though its onli 5 liddat when we start slpin....haha..den we pack up by 9..den 930..e guy jiu came 2 collect e room ler..den we jiu went home ler..cos all so tired...i reach home..bath ler..eat ler...jiu immediately slp...haha..pig..hhmmm...den hor..slp for bout 5 hours...haha...

haiz...dat job did not call...think i won get 2 job ler...kao..haiz...sianzed...giv up man...wait 4 nth...

~superman~

2005-12-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

hhmmm...dec ler...this week quite bz...mon tues wed this 3 daes whole dae jiu spent in skool ler...got dance n wushu camp..den beri tired..kao...den e last dae...got band de ppl things tio stolen...den wei ler prove our innocence...we let them check our things..ya...den got nth...den we jiu kana proven innocent ler lor...haha...den after dat..i send vin home...jiu went home ler...next dae..which is thurs...i went suntec there...go e toysrus there apply 4 job...kao..weekiat sua mi...sae go down interview...kao...make mi rush there..in e end fill form nia...den after dat..i went 2 find josiah n jj...faber house there....den fill e surveyor de application form...den now wait 4 call lor...den jj sae he goin tamp de snk interview..den i jo jj jiu go there lor...den not realli is interview la...is go write application form...den they sae they will call within a weeks time....den who noes...dat particular night they jiu call ler...sae tmr..which is 2dae.. 330 go interview..ya...so happi man...den hor...2dae reach there...wah....still got bout 4 or 5 ppl there...den hav 2 wait there...wah...sianzed...now hor..still got 5 daes..realli scared leh...hav 2 wait...wait ler if got hor..still nvm...wait ler later dun hav...KAO....sianzed x1000000 lor..haiz....den...tmr...mayb goin malaysia...buy clothes..4 cny..but ar...e most important thing...NO $$$...kao....sianzed...$$ is got la..but not mani...kao..first holidae so cham man...sianzed...den this sun dunno goin PA not leh...gtg mi ar ma house...sianzed...den next week jiu got chalet...by e time chalet finish..i jiu hav 2 hope dat guy got call mi...*prayin hard man...pls...pls...*....haha...k...write till here...
~superman~

2005-11-23T21:47:00.000-08:00

hhmmm..this few daes keep rainin...den so cold...hhmmm..2dae 23rd...went back skool...cos need 2 sae those jc poly thingy..den 9 jiu hav 2 reach ler...kao..i still thought got wad important thingy...kao..all is bullshit nia..10 liddat jiu finish ler..kao...waste time man...haiz...den by 24 25 which is tmr or e dae after tmr hav 2 go apply 4 jc ler..kao..onli can go sr..but i dun wanna go leh..i wanna take e 3 month try go out work..hav some experience of havin a job..nvm..giv mama face..go apply cc...if cannot den huat ar...haha.... :p ...den i jiu go work...hhmmm..but ar...i oso dunno where got job avaliable...sianzed..hhmmm...ya..anyway...after 2dae thingy..jiu pei vin home..den jiu went home..afternoon wanna watch vcd...den josiah ask 4 mi help on e plannin...hhmmm...jiu giv idea lor..den after dat i tired jiu slp ler...den did not watch any vcd...haha...sianzed...haha...nvm..tmr goin out anyway..den this sun will oso go out..sun mornin josiah mich kris ber will come mi house...discuss camp...den after dat in e afternoon at bout 4 i jiu hav 2 go out ler...go chua bbq..haha..chua..i beri good hor..sacrifice mi weddin dinner go ya bbq...haha.... :p ..bbq at night..dats y jo they all mornin jiu come..10 leh..so early..haha...nvm..i at home nth 2 do anyway...haha... :p... ya..think dats all 4 this week...back again next week...
~superman~

2005-11-19T22:29:00.000-08:00

muhahahahah....2dae so happi....finalli got new hp...hehe....went out wif mama 2dae....go lavender there extend pastport...haha....after dat go ps there....den actualli go starhub shop c de...den k750i is 498...got giv free watch...but not nice...den actualli wanna go mi house downstairs there c c...mayb cheaper...den on e way 2 mrt...walk pass e samsung shop...den go inside c c...cos mama wanna buy ear piece...den shocked dat oso got sell other brand de phone...den saw k750i...sell 398...haha....den jiu buy ler...muhaha...so happi...den hor...so funnie...we spend bout 20 min choose number...cos all number not beri nice de....in e end decided on e best n eziest 2 remember de number...which is... 96218521(feel free 2 sms mi)...ya...den so happi....but ar...now hor..when i writin this...i am crackin mi head tryin 2 find out how 2 use e usb cable thingy...kao...any1 noe not....can teach mi...??....ahhaa.....k...write till here....buaibuai...

~superman~

2005-11-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

it's finalli over...finalli...o's finalli over...after weeks of bks n papers...wah...but ar...instead of feelin exceptionally happi...i feel lost instead..it's like...not used 2 it...mayb it's becos like no more bks 2 study bah...and oso it's like...hhmmm...dunno wad 2 do in e future...den like no mu biao liao..veri lost...actualli i is got plan 4 e holidae de la..but i dun even noe if e person wud wan 2 go along wif e plans...i oso dun feel like sayin it 2 e person...i'm juz 2 tired 2 take all e initiative thingy...i'm juz feel so........lonely....ya..mayb dats e correct word 2 use...it realli dampens mi mood everytime i feel like this lor...it's like..4 eg...i can sit on mi bed n stare in2 mid air..n suddenly cry...wondering y in e hell am i doin this(do nth n cry)...i'm startin 2 b melancholic...den as this carries on..i'm startin 2 doubt everything...EVERYTHING..haiz....

it's goin 2 b 1 yr ler...coming sundae jiu 1 yr ler..nov 20..haiz...nov 20 is e seperation of mi life...as in dat particular date...a lot of memories seems 2 come back...i noe it's not right 2 think of e past..especially when i alreadi had wad i hav now..but i cant help it..e memories juz keep flashin through mi mind..especialli when i listen 2 e song guo du qi by zhang dong liang...i noe it's not right 2 do so..but i tend 2 compare now wif last time..n i admit..i hav a better n happier time in e past...haiz....

i'm sorrie...if u noe wad i'm tokin about above...i'm sorrie...

~superman~

2005-11-05T22:31:00.000-08:00

"|| there was this story dat i read recently..it was a story of a woman living in e mental hospital..she's been living there 4 bout 20 yrs...everydae she wud come out of her room and lay facedown on e floor...stayed there for hrs as doc n nurses stepped pass around n ignored her...den there was 1 dae when this guy came n saw this..he began 2 sit on e floor wif her n even lay down alongside wif her..tryin 2 draw her out of her misery...eventually..e guy got her 2 sit up...even sent her 2 her room...........................wad e woman wan (e guy learnt dat) was e same thing every1 wans...dats is 2 notice she is there....ATTENTION is wad every1 WANS...||"

"|| fate succumbs mani a species:one alone jeopardise itself||"

~superman~

last dae....

2005-10-28T22:22:00.000-07:00

omg...sianzed...2dae last dae we sec4's go 2 skool sing mari kita 2gether ler...kao...sianzed...haiz...suddenly got this feelin inside mi...hhmmm...how 2 describe it ar...beri saddenin de mood...gan chu liang duo....haiz...i gotta miss every1 man...it's been 4 yrs we've been 2gether...memories will owas b in mi heart...this sec life of mine realli have a big big big big big big big impact...ying xiang beri beri beri beri beri shen ke..sob sob...sianzed...i realli cry ler...haiz...sometimes i walk pass skool...realli beri de se bu de this skool...a lot of memories of mine start from there...sad de...happi de...all....haiz...nan chiau high...i will owas remember this name...realli....i swear...i realli cant think of how next yr will b like...once so close de frens all seperate ler...all those laughters n craps...all seems 2 b juz memories nia...onli if we can turn back time...haiz...sob sob....yoong...yenwei...soh zhe aka blackie..lee...chua...zj......monkey...lin...jan...jieting..belinda...weekiat...liang yu...jie...n oso those other lvls de...angel...kris...mich...anna...beatrice..shuwen..chuxuan...xiao mei...jaz...berlinda..lixuan...botak...josiah...wah...mani mani more...sob sob...i realli realli hen bu she de....wahhhhhhhhh...sob sob...suddenly feel so lost...so alone...haiz...i realli gotta miss every1...miss e teachers...miss mi cca...miss e whole skool....kao...y do we hav 2 part..aarrggghhh...haiz....but i hav 2 accept this bah...hav 2....sob sob...

"||u will owas stay in mi heart...owas...may e memories stay 4eva...||"

~superman~

2005-10-28T22:20:00.000-07:00

haiz...
i'm beginnin 2 lose faith on everything...
i dunno i still can take it 4 how long...
i realli hope dat i can juz sae out everything...
but so wad if i sae out...
nth's gonna change...
things won change becos i sae lor...
even if i sae...
den things start 2 change...
but...
it will feel so......
fake..
haiz...
i beginnin 2 doubt everything...
though i neba sae...
but...
a lot of thoughts been goin through mi...
haiz...
den somemore next yr................................
haiz....
i dunno...
i realli dunno...
beginnin 2 break down ler...
wo yao dao xia qu ler...
wo zen de hen xin ku....

~superman~

2005-10-21T22:08:00.000-07:00

hi every1...come post ler...hhmmm...i dunnoo wad 2 write....hhmmm....this few daes...keep stayin inside mi room...doin math n chem...do till sianzed...kao...dunno when this imprisonment goin 2 end...goin 2 go siaw liao...sianzed..if i keep doin chem n math..i do dao sianzed...if i do others like physics...i go pek chek cos i dunno how 2 do...kao..whole dae bu shi slp jiu shi do revision....wanna watch tv oso cannot...no programme...kao...wads e world of mine becomin man...onli means of relaxation 4 mi is 2 listen 2 songs..hhmmm...ya..should listen 2 craig david de don't love u no more..wah...so nice...like e music...love it man...hhmmm...aiya...mayb write dao here la...

"|| treat others e way u wan others 2 treat u...get wad i mean??...||"

~superman~

bio finish ler...

2005-10-18T22:12:00.000-07:00

wah~~!!!!!....2dae bio practical over ler...wah......so diff man...i dunno wad 2 write lor....lau ask stupid question oso...ask how 2 prepare neatly....ass la....ask stupid question....study textbk oso no use....y ar...i study owas neba come out....i dun study jiu come out...sianzed..haiz....next week jiu chem prac ler...kao...haiz...anyway...

dear...happi bd...sorrie neba pei u...i make up after o's...hav fun durin ya holidae wor..

hhmmm....i dun get it...y cant they b more matured...y they keep thinkin this way...if they like dat...does it means dat we cannnot exist 2gether la...cannot go out 2gether la...y u all will feel this way...kao....haiz...nvm....shua...dun think bout it ler la...write till here...buaibuai....
~superman~

stressed...

2005-10-16T21:29:00.000-07:00

haiz....i dunno if i can take it anymore...i feel like i breakin down...everything seems so 'heavy'...wo hao xiang chuan bu guo qi..everydae face e 4 walls of mi room...everynight e darkness seems 2 b eatin mi up...i realli wish i could juz cry n let everything out...i realli wish there's someone who showin mi e concern i wan...i realli yearn 4 it...but how long wud it take 4 it 2 come...e stress of o's... mi mama...mi mood swings..haiz...
it rained 4 e whole dae today...every part of mi body was covered wif e rain...i thought it wud wash away mi troubles...but it did not...instead it flows in2 mi body...haiz...e sound of raindrops...chases away e silence of mi room...it's scary...i realli dunno if i can take it anymore...i realli hope everything wud pass quickly...i realli hope... i realli hope...
~superman~

2005-10-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

INSTRUCTIONS:1) Name 5 quirky habits that nobody knows about.
2) Tag 5 persons to do the same on their blog!

1)i look at mi room de 4 walls n cry...
2)i drool durin mi slp...
3)i look at e mirror n feel disgusted...
4)i look at e ground when walkin alone...
5)i owas hate 2 eat porridge...

hhmmm...e 5 person is...
1)jovin
2)angeline
3)michelle
4)kristal
5)jiawen

2nd post....

2005-10-11T15:42:00.001-07:00

hhmmm...haha...come post ler....now in skool library....haha...tan they all now beside mi...bookin chalet...haha....hhmmm...wad 2 sae leh...hhmmm....now at skool...keep on havin revision...so stress....so mani skool paper given 2 us...sianzed....aiya...dunnno wad 2 write ler...hhmmm....dats all...jia you 4 ya exam....ya's goin finish ler...jia you...after dat u can play like siaw ler....good luck...luv ya...
~superman~

yozyoz...

2005-10-07T21:44:00.000-07:00

heyhey....change blog ler...hahah....song bo....nice hor nice hor...e skin...4 seasons...wah....so meaningful...haha...hhmmm....wad 2 write leh...prelims over 4 quite some time ler...results sucks like hell....l1r5 got 19 leh..sianzed....wanna go first 3 month oso cannot...sianzed...den now skool giv us sec 4 structured programme....wah..so stress lor...suppose 2 help us de..but i think make us more stress instead...haha....hhmmm....nvm...juz bear wif it bout 1 plus month more....den can fly ler...haha...den now is sec 1 2 3 de eoy....hhmmm...jovin....must jia you k....i will b there 4 ya no matter wad de...thought we can onli meet after o's...i will miss ya much de....muacks....hhmmm....good luck 4 ya exam....hhmmm...n angel kris mich...i dunno when will u all c this la...but if u 3 wan 2 hear mi comment bout wads happenin now....i wud onli sae...there's a lot of miscommunication between u 3....as wad i hav told angel...hav u all realise dat u all hear bout each other is owas through middle person de...n when there's middle person right...message might change a little...den e way u c it might not b e same ler...haiz...u 3...juz realli hope u 3 can sit down n tok everything out lor....it's a waste if u 3 let such a frenship die away lor...juz hhmmm....good luck la....k...write till here....buaibuai...write again soon....
~superman~